Gratitude is enough

Rev. Steph • March 9, 2019

It is enough to get us through the most difficult pain and the longest nights. Instead of wallowing in sadness, regrets and scarcity, we can search for gratitude.

Meister Elkhart, a German Theologian, says, “If the only prayer you ever say is thank you, it will be enough.”

It will be enough as we distract ourselves from our negativity by recognizing that God brings good from bad situations; a totally different theory than believing God causes bad things to happen us, so we will grow up, have faith and learn compassion.

We may learn those things as we recognize the good that God brings out of the nastiness. We will become ever more grateful to our God who is enough... and even more than we can hope for or imagine.

The spiritual growth, increasing faith and hearts of compassion are some of the nuggets of wisdom picked up on our journey. There are so many nuggets for us to grasp. I will definitely need bigger pockets!

One of those nuggets of wisdom is gratitude. Most of us are familiar with Mr. Rogers quote in scary situations, “My mothers always said to look for the helpers. There are always people helping.”

After two months of being out of my natural environment and routine life, isolation had started to set in.

As an extrovert, who gets her energy from being around other people, and as a part of the family of God, I was missing community and communion with God’s people.

My days have been rich with moments of communion with God. Sacred time to reconnect with God on a personal level for personal reasons and find some rest for my soul and hope for my body.

It gets pretty easy as a very busy Minister to miss time in private devotion that has nothing to do with preparing for public worship.

Even with gratitude for these moments, I have felt disconnected from the bigger picture.

However, my heart has been bursting with hope and my lips sing praises of gratitude... Lucky you, only God has to decipher the tune! But, I hope that all of you will recognize my gratefulness!

Friends have stopped by to visit. My fridge and freezer are full of lovingly prepared meals. People have invited me out for a change of scenery or supported me as I attended the World Day of Prayer Service. My counters are full of cards.

All of you ask and care about how I am and how my medical situation is progressing.

Some folks simply shoot the breeze about politics, weather and daily news to help me get out of the narrow focus of illness. You are praying for me and with me.

Some of you are letting me know that this blog is speaking to your hearts and helping you reflect on your own situations. That connection allows me the dignity to continue in ministry in some small way even when I can often feel that God has me on the sidelines for a time.

I am grateful for all of the ways that you are reaching out and encouraging me with help and hope.

In all ways that you have helped to reach through the isolation and re-connect, I am so thankful.

Gratitude is enough to lessen pain and brighten the darkness, so that we can see God’s helpers all around us.

Gratitude is enough to change an hour, day or week. Thank you for all the big and little things you are doing to show care and compassion and making a huge difference everyday for those whom you love.

Gratitude is enough to see above and beyond!

PS. Very grateful to share that I received news yesterday that the medicine has been approved and funded. We are on the next part of the journey as I wait to hear when I will receive the first infusion!

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He has risen! Jesus is not in the tomb! Now there is space for the ministers of the gospel who lived through Holy Week Services and Easter Celebrations to crawl in and have their three days of rest Hallelujah! For me, since Palm Sunday, I’ve been singing, “I owe, I owe! It’s back to work I go!” You can join me... Sing this in your head picturing the little Disney dwarfs with their pick axes and lunch buckets packed by their new roommate Snow White. Whistle, if you like! Palm Sunday, Jesus entered Jerusalem and with less fanfare, but triumphant nonetheless, I re-entered the pulpit. Not because I owe money for the mortgage or the power bill or groceries or other everyday items. Our National church, through Restorative Care, makes sure that salaries are covered while staff recuperate. My paycheque continued as always even though I was off for medical reasons, so I did not have to hurry back to work to save my material possessions. And yet, I came back with a debt of gratitude to pay! And so, I owe, I owe, it’s back to work I go! I love Holy Week and all the different ways that we share together ecumenically with our brothers and sisters in Lewisporte. So many kinds of worship and the creativity of walking the most treacherous and painful journey of Jesus’ life. Walking that journey with Jesus gives us an opportunity to relate to him as we enter his pain because he entered ours. I am grateful for a Saviour who is a Wounded Healer and whose vulnerability makes him strong, passing that same strength to us. God’s power is shown as strength in our weakness. As Jesus displayed the whole realm of humanity’s brokenness, he also allowed people to help him through the tender and terrible points of the passion account. I cannot begin to list the names of the people that I am grateful to, for fear of missing some. My people, my church and my community have surrounded me on my journey of late and I appreciate the prayers lifted, the food dropped off, the Sunday Services that were covered, the organization to fill the gap in my absence, the conversations and the immense amount of caring that has been showered upon me. All of which has contributed to strength in my pain and healing in my body. I have seen God through all of you. And I was grateful to come back to work, a small bit improved in health and a huge improvement in spirit! We live as Easter people, knowing the hope, joy and power of God seen through the garden, the cross and the empty tomb. Not just at Easter, but all the time, I recognize an unending refrain, “I owe, I owe, with praise and thanks I go!”
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The juices are in and it is time to soak in the goodness. Both doses of my new medication have been infused 8 hours at a time. As the new medications flow throughout my system, my strength should increase and my symptoms decrease. With more energy and less swelling, I can get back to living life with zest. But for that, I wait. It could be up to 3 months before I see the total results. In the meantime, I celebrate every small improvement along the way. And so it seems appropriate to celebrate this tenth blog in a special way! So BBQ imagery it is! I know many friends who consider a good steak on the BBQ a celebration supper. Some places in our diverse country, Spring is sprouting and BBQs are being dusted off and placed in their spots on the patios and decks of eager grill masters. Here, in my most favourite climate, the celebratory season of BBQing is never truly put away. We simply don parkas and toques and grill any season. So as we fire up the feast and our taste buds and salivary glands kick into high gear, we mark the hurrahs and hallelujahs of light that will not be overcome by darkness. In the midst of our slow climb to success, each step is a celebration. Some big, some small. The tenth blog post seems small. My return to work this Sunday will be a much smaller parade as I re-enter the pulpit, than was Jesus’ triumphant entry to Jerusalem, but it is a great big deal to me and my congregation. And, of course, the marinade. All my new medications are finally in my system and there are very small improvements already, providing much reason for elation and hope. Much more improvement shall come as the mixture soaks in and adds strength of joy and zest to life. The image of the BBQ with the special marination of the steak goes a bit awry at this point though because marinade is for tenderizing the meat and in my case I will get less tender if the juices do their job! What are you celebrating, big or small, as we journey together through the successes and struggles of life?
By Rev. Steph April 4, 2019
I have signed my organ donor card. But really, there should be another checkbox on that card. I should be able to check a box and donate my body - the one that serves as a medical puzzle - to science! Surely no one will want it for organs! I hardly want it now! 😂 The drive into St. John’s was long and exhausting... and I was the passenger! But it was necessary to reconnect with my Rheumatologist at this stage in disease progression and medication intervention. Betcha can’t guess the first thing he said this time after checking the swelling in my hands, elbows and jaw. He declared, “You are abnormal!” You may not have guessed those words, but after hearing the diagnosis, plenty of friends have said I could have saved myself the pain of the drive to St. John’s because they already knew that! “Unique... You are unique,” he said as he rephrased his statement, “and I just can’t figure you out!” I am blessed that he loves a challenge and hasn’t given up on me yet. In fact, he says he takes me with him to all his medical conferences around the world to see if any colleagues can help. Since I have yet to travel anywhere, I assume he means the case study that is me. I, also, think he plans it so that there will be new Pharmaceutical Reps in the Office during my appointments, so he can regale them with my history. The doctor says, “Most people get pretty discouraged after the third medicine change. Doctor’s give too much false hope and patients get cynical when those hopes don’t pan out.” Rightly so. Pain and the looming disease progression tends to make one less and less cheerful. “But,” he says, “We’ve tried everything on Stephanie and she just takes it in stride. Nothing has worked and some have had some dangerous side effects that only she finds for us.” “Six. This is my sixth medication in this category,” I said as the doctor looks over the list for confirmation. After hearing about the other meds I have taken and the side effects and seeing the pain and discomfort as I move, the Rep declared, “You sound so positive and so hope-filled.” “I look at it this way,” I tell him, “and I have since the day I got sick in the first place, if I can’t move again tomorrow, I am going to live so that I have something to remember about today.” We all have mottos that help us cope with the struggles we meet on the path of life. That’s one of mine. A mantra, of sorts, that pushes us beyond the rise and fall of emotional reactions. It doesn’t always keep me hopeful and cheerful, but it does help me focus when I am feeling down and depressed. It reminds me of how I want to live my life as an adventure and a memoir, even if I am the only reader. I want to have memories that would entertain me and inspire me. Things that I would have never accomplished if I didn’t grow and strive and push myself to new limits when my body, and some detractors, kept saying it couldn’t be done. Instead, with deep faith and an imagination that allows me to “hope in the Lord and soar on wings like eagles”, each pitfall is a temporary setback. One approaches each new trial, and trail on our spiritual path, with the hope of physical healing and a more pain-free future. Perhaps my new medications will be the miracle that brings me in line with what others in the medical world might consider normal. Perhaps they will bring on complete remission and all the physical freedom that can provide. I certainly hope and pray for that type of healing, but if it doesn’t happen that way. I am ok. Because I know that healing doesn’t always look like we think it should. We don’t always get the results we expect or demand, but we still keep going with God, with hope, with humour and with humility. The adventure continues and there is purpose in the path. Sometimes, the miraculous healing happens as our broken spirits are mended and strengthened for the journey. We face each day with God as a new adventure adding another exciting chapter in the unfolding memoir of our own lives. “If I can’t move tomorrow, at least I have lived today.” What is the mantra that leads you onward and upward as you travel? Along the way, I have found that normal is highly overrated anyway.